Testimony Time | The Reason for my Glow - The Girl's in Love y'all! 😍

So I understand this blog post might not be as popular as the ones with sordid details of my dismal love life, but it's a MUST that I share this! I hope it encourages someone.

I've had an incredible start to 2022; I couldn't be happier. I'm experiencing God's grace in such a sweet way, I literally think the word "sweet" describes this current season perfectly.

There's been a lot of changes (all good) that have taken place in my life over the past few months. As much as I had a great year last year and the year before that, I always knew that something was missing; I was living my best life yet my soul wasn't completely satisfied. And I've been a church girl for a long time now, so I know that when my personal relationship with God is rocky, I live an incredibly carnal life, finding pleasure in "boys and booze" as I've jokingly mentioned in a previous blog post.

So when this year began, and as I was taking stock of my life and envisioning the year ahead, I knew something had to give. My spirit and soul were thirsty for something bigger than my carnal desires. I longed for a divine life of purpose. Worse still, I knew that God had long ago promised me great things and that He had an amazing plan for my life, but I just wasn't living up to it for some reason. (Because we are spiritual beings, we always know in our hearts when we are not living in the fullness of who we were created to be). And the dawning of a new year, for me, magnified that gnawing desire for fulfilment of purpose.

Through what I can only call divine intervention, a series of events led me to return to a church I used to attend years ago with the family I lived with when I was in high school. Many supernatural encounters with God took place in my life when I was serving there previously, but due to mistakes I made, I ended up leaving the church prematurely. Now, I felt, was an opportune moment to go back and redeem the time, and receive all that I had missed because of my disobedience. 

Being back in the church has brought me such incredible peace y'all, I really feel like I've come back home, and my soul is satisfied because of the "good soil" I'm planted in. My relationship with God is back on track, slowly getting to a healthy place again. I've even enrolled into Bible College to deepen and solidify my foundations. By the grace of God, I'm faithfully serving in the worship team again. I really feel like I'm finally channeling my energy in the right direction, and have stopped feeding habits that don't serve me anymore. I'm experiencing emotional, mental and spiritual healing, and I feel like a totally new person.

So naturally, people in my life are wondering about this undeniable "glow" that I have.😇 Apparently I'm exuding an infectious and attractive aura...lol Kanti kuyavela ngalapho ukuthi ngi-happy! I can only describe this experience as falling in love. I'm falling in love with Jesus again, I'm falling in love with myself again, and I'm really appreciating life in a new way. My heart is full of gratitude. I'm expectant of wonderful things to come; but more importantly, I'm finally prepared to "do the work" in order to receive my healing and blessings. (Remember, we can't receive God's blessings unless we actively partner with Him through faith and corresponding actions).

I recall that between 2015 and 2019 I experienced a lot of trauma and disappointment, and I made terrible life decisions which led to a lot of pain. One of those resulting painful incidents was my hospitalization for depression in 2019, I speak a lot about this in my other blog posts. My life post-hospitalization has been nothing short of a miracle. Yes, I've been missing the mark and falling short of God's grace but He has been so faithful to me. He has carried me through impossible situations, and has provided supernaturally so that I could also be a blessing to others.

I sit here today fully believing that I am more than a conqueror through Christ Jesus. I'm completely convinced and in awe of the goodness of God. He's not just good to me, but He's good to anyone who dares to seek Him wholeheartedly. God is faithful, His love is unconditional, He is quick to forgive. I am a product of His great grace and mercy, continually. I invite you too on this beautifully rewarding journey with your Maker, the One who never leaves your side. The One who fills the deepest void in your heart. The One who is able to do exceedingly, abundantly above all that you can ask, think or imagine.

Jeremiah 29:11 reads, "For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, to give you a future and a hope." God wants to give us a good life in every aspect, He wants to give us hope. If this blog post encourages just one person to hope in God, and to seek God's will for their life, I'll be more than happy. 

Remember, you are loved, you are beautifully unique, you have so much to offer the world. Get "offering" already.👀 We were created to love and serve God and people, we find our deepest fulfilment when we express this innate character within us. I promise you, a life of service is so incredibly rewarding, and it attracts the favour of God. Hence, the reason for my glow - the girl's in Love y'all!