Let’s be friends my comrade, life is screwing all of us over!✊
I’m sitting in bed on a Friday night. Despite the great urge to go out and have a good time as I so often have in the past few weeks, I decided to stay home and reflect. I actually love my own company, but as with a lot of people who are obsessive-compulsive, I can be my own worst enemy. If I’m going to be alone, I better be doing something therapeutic like reading, writing or washing dishes, otherwise I get into my own head and cause havoc with my anxious thoughts. I’m sure a lot of you in your late twenties and early thirties can agree that we don’t need much motivation to start freaking out about ALL of life at any given moment. I don’t think anything really prepares you for this beautifully chaotic and almost life-threatening stage of the human experience. I’m all out of answers, and if anyone is cruising through this season unscathed, PLEASE write a book or a manual for the rest of us who feel overwhelmed and are fighting for our lives daily!
As I said earlier, I’ve been going out a little too much lately, maybe to distract myself, maybe to numb myself, but all I know is that I’m trying to escape. From what? I’m not even going to try to put it into words…all I’ll say is life is hard, y’all! Just yesterday, I had an awkward “break-up” talk with the guy who isn’t my boyfriend but with whom I’ve been “having fun” for the past few months. By the way, he’s in a very serious relationship and has been for the past two years, I think. (Judge not lest you be judged also😂). Anyway, the situation between us was getting a little too heavy, and I may have caught feelings (hand on face emoji), which can only end in chaos and tragedy for all involved if we don’t abandon ship on time. So I have plenty of motivation to go drown my sorrows at my favourite bar, but am choosing a healthier outlet tonight; turning my turmoil and anguish into a reflection, an introspection of sorts, to gain perspective and remind myself that I’m not alone in this winter season of life.
As I write, I think of many friends, colleagues and acquaintances who’ve recently shared similar dilemmas and expressed their struggles in navigating this perplexing maze that some humorously refer to as “adulting”. Some are facing retrenchments at work, others are caught in ugly love triangles, and some are just numb and unfulfilled in many ways. So what do we do, my fellow comrades in the struggle against life? We’ve seen far too many casualties in this unrelenting war, and frankly, I’m sick to my stomach and cannot take in another story of despair and defeat without losing my mind! Heck, I need a smoke break…Can I get an amen!
I apologise for getting a little agro and gloomy earlier, I’ve calmed down now and have my “happy on” after some Beyonce and a little nicotine (note to self: stock up on some weed tomorrow). Unfortunately, I’m still out of answers to the many dilemmas I’ve posed, and I figure I’m in good company. But I know that there’s power in numbers and that a problem shared is a problem halved…corny but true. I hope to build with a community of like-minded, or even better-minded, people who are real, transparent and ready to offer an ear or encouragement to others like me in this shared journey of life. We all go through seasons, and most of the time, you’ve experienced or learnt something that could be of paramount value to someone else still navigating the winter that you’ve been through.
So let’s talk, let’s cry, let’s laugh and let’s live together because for every happy soul we create, it means one less crazy person out there causing shit that the world doesn’t actually need.
Welcome to my blog – let’s be friends my comrade, life is screwing all of us over!✊
As I said earlier, I’ve been going out a little too much lately, maybe to distract myself, maybe to numb myself, but all I know is that I’m trying to escape. From what? I’m not even going to try to put it into words…all I’ll say is life is hard, y’all! Just yesterday, I had an awkward “break-up” talk with the guy who isn’t my boyfriend but with whom I’ve been “having fun” for the past few months. By the way, he’s in a very serious relationship and has been for the past two years, I think. (Judge not lest you be judged also😂). Anyway, the situation between us was getting a little too heavy, and I may have caught feelings (hand on face emoji), which can only end in chaos and tragedy for all involved if we don’t abandon ship on time. So I have plenty of motivation to go drown my sorrows at my favourite bar, but am choosing a healthier outlet tonight; turning my turmoil and anguish into a reflection, an introspection of sorts, to gain perspective and remind myself that I’m not alone in this winter season of life.
As I write, I think of many friends, colleagues and acquaintances who’ve recently shared similar dilemmas and expressed their struggles in navigating this perplexing maze that some humorously refer to as “adulting”. Some are facing retrenchments at work, others are caught in ugly love triangles, and some are just numb and unfulfilled in many ways. So what do we do, my fellow comrades in the struggle against life? We’ve seen far too many casualties in this unrelenting war, and frankly, I’m sick to my stomach and cannot take in another story of despair and defeat without losing my mind! Heck, I need a smoke break…Can I get an amen!
I apologise for getting a little agro and gloomy earlier, I’ve calmed down now and have my “happy on” after some Beyonce and a little nicotine (note to self: stock up on some weed tomorrow). Unfortunately, I’m still out of answers to the many dilemmas I’ve posed, and I figure I’m in good company. But I know that there’s power in numbers and that a problem shared is a problem halved…corny but true. I hope to build with a community of like-minded, or even better-minded, people who are real, transparent and ready to offer an ear or encouragement to others like me in this shared journey of life. We all go through seasons, and most of the time, you’ve experienced or learnt something that could be of paramount value to someone else still navigating the winter that you’ve been through.
So let’s talk, let’s cry, let’s laugh and let’s live together because for every happy soul we create, it means one less crazy person out there causing shit that the world doesn’t actually need.
Welcome to my blog – let’s be friends my comrade, life is screwing all of us over!✊
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